lost.

i've got alot to say.
but there seems to be noone there to listen.
especially now.
the words from my heart.
how i felt.
how angry i am.
how much i'm brooding over it.
how much grievences i felt.

do you know?
how not easy it is to act as if nth happened?
i know.
i understand.
but i feel different.
it seems morally unright to do so.
it somehow seems to me what im feeling now is like a sore loser.
but,
what is this if its not even a fair fight to start off with?

its no longer the results that mattered.
how long wld you want this to last?
if this is going to be the case,
can anyone tell me,
whats
the
point
.


what can i say?
who can i tell?

at the end of the day,
i'll only get these replies.
relax, relax,
its over. dont think abt it le.

what i can say is,
you wont understand.

i'm really doing so.
trying very hard to do so.
but, will it help at all?
i only felt like im avoiding it.


it felt like a de'javu.




pls understand,
it
takes
time.